Do you feel like you have lost part of your innocence since you started smoking? ASSHOLE, Still doing around a pack and a half. Kick him to the curb. I'm a pack to a pack and half a day smoker my wife, being around a pack a day smoker before quitting, is a 2 pack per day smoker now and has, and she's said as much, no intention of quitting ever again.music to my ears Add comment as: I was smoking about 4 or 5 a day then a few months later my mom started smoking Eve menthol 120s . And I'm kind of worried that I'm going to keep smoking more, because I enjoy them so much. I also feel warm and it's kind of veyeuristically pleasurable to be watched smoking and watching others smoke. And I kept doing it. But after a couple of days of asking questions and googling, I was less bothered. When did you first realize it was a fetish that you had developed? He smokes socially/occasionally but was supportive at first and has become obsessed with my smoking too. I told her that her new attitude was hot, that she'd make a great, sexy trophy girl for an older guy. My mother is French. My story is about the same. Even a woman I hang with at the sports bar has done hers longer, and in a changing-color polish, at my suggestion. I didn't write this. But the point is, I did. When she's not smoking a cigarette she's craving one cause she has an uneasy feeling every moment she's without her cigarettes. She smokes a lot, maybe 1.5 packs a day. You have a good mother, she understands you and will support you if you smoke regularly. I love smoking in bed with my partner, and sometimes this leads to some erotic pleasure. I still love him to bits and would love to get back together with him, but whenever I see him light one of those cancer sticks my heart sinks, I feel sick and I could actually cry and he has even said to me that 'you would be more forgiving if I cheated on you', I probably would be more forgiving for that to be honest. We worked together a short time at a marketing place and could smoke on the job so she was puffing away at work which she loved. I started out with one a day, then it went to 2 and now 4-5 a day, I love smoking so much. The Disney star turned entrepreneur is unapologetic about her love of weed . They got tired of her lectures and convinced her to try it. though which is good. I shook one out of the pack and lit up. I told her that I she really enjoyed she should do it. Five days ago I didn't think so. Stop Smoking. My gf got me start. I thought smoking away from my hubby was a sacrifice I was making (see how nice I am? I never even knew she had been a smoker. Im a radical vegan and Ive started eating bugs in order to protect the environment (theyre full of protein). I had been keeping the habit a secret from most of my family. That dat she gave me some more puffs and she could see that I liked it. Most disheartening is that it seems like "Marriage vs. Capri 120's" could be the defining title for my life in the last five years. I hope you ate okay with it when he gets sick. But my family would disown me. Yes I like also coffe! What I mean is do you feel more like some sexy and naughty seductress whenever you smoke which is probably quite often now? Enter your email address to follow this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email. I have faked headaches so I could stay home from outings that would hinder my ability to smoke at least every hour. I'll probably only stop smoking if I run out of money to buy . It is only right that I help feed her fetishes tpo If you had told me what I was doing, I would have thought you were crazy! Call a smoking quitline. Wonderful at the moment. It felt so exciting and erotitic. At first she tried to tell me not too but the next day I was eating breakfast when she came home and to my surprise she slid her case over to me and said it was OK. I'll smoke anytime and anywhere. And it was just getting worse and worse. I'm not. My mom smoked Salem slims 100 at the time . I chain smoke Winfield reds at every opportunity. Toxtricity. He was so sweet and never tried to change or judge me like my ex did. Could you describe to us what it feels like to be fornicated by your boyfriend while inhaling smoke more extensively? I mentioned to her that occasionally I would buy a pack on holidays especially if there were sexy smoking women about. Partner has re-started smoking - I hate it By Loz21, June 29, 2021 in Dating Share 2 Start new topic Loz21 New Member Members 4 posts Posted June 29, 2021 Back story: Me and my partner C have been together 2years in August and when we started dating he was a vaper who previously smoked. How long did it take for you to develop a smoker's cough? If I think about that too much, I have to smoke more to calm down. I smoke when I'm full. When I talk about quitting smoking: Category One is often supportive, but a little disappointed they won't be able to bum off me anymore when I'm drunk. I got curious, I bummed a cigarette at work a few times. 2023 Dotdash Media, Inc. All rights reserved. I remember the sister was mad cause her friend came over and smoked a bunch of her cigarettes. I smoked my second cigarette on a dour July afternoon when I was 15. as I am over 60 For those of you who follow this blog, I'm sorry I haven't been updating it. I was so naive that I had never heard of it. I wouldn't like to quit, I think I would feel like I had lost something very dear to me. He's smart, thoughtful, kind, and sexy - I love him. I just have to eat her like an animal I get so turned on. I don't want to burden my family with the cost and pain of a debilitating smoking-related disease (like my father).. You now smell like shit and have the habit of a crack whore. Did smoking awaken a desire to be more fashionable and beautiful in you? I smoke about a pack a day now. (I've been smoking secretly for a while so want to know what's in store if I commit fully). Smile for the mirror as you smoke. It started when I was a little girl of 9 yo. I was so blind to my manipulations and scheming. But I really didn't want to. Make a podcast, YouTube or TikTok videos about our confessions and we'll promote your content, free! Tobacco, Mon Amour. Suffice to say, after buying our duty free, 200 cigs each to take with us she proceeded to not only smoke the remaining 16 cigarellos and the 200 duty free cigarettes we also bought another couple of cartons while we were there and smoked our way through them. I've been to Vegas before and that's smoker's heaven, you can smoke everywhere, There's good and bad news! When she first lights up she loves to keep that fresh lit cigarette in her mouth like she's hugging and kissing it feeling the warm smoky filter parked on her lips, she never though she could get this much pleasure out of a cigarette and she smokes long full flavor cigarettes cause she's at the point where she wants all she can possibly get out I finally felt like I could do it. He was super into this, and I was into him. I would finally feel like I could sit down next to my husband or son for awhile and be alright. She got hooked fell in love with smoking and was taking bigger and bigger puffs and smoking more and more cigarettes every day turning into a full blown chimney. How do ther smokers feel about beings a smoker? Managing Withdrawal. Both my parents were heavy smokers. She did it a couple of times in front of me, and saw what it did to me and said "you really like this alot" I thought that was the end of it, then two months later we go out and she's looking great in sheer blouse and a pushup bra, tight yoga pants over her chubby round ass, rockin' some nice panty lines, hair and makeup done up. Sign up to receive the TalkingDrugs newsletter (in English) once every two months, Becoming a Woman Who Uses Crack: Breaking Silences in Brazil, Owning My Pleasure - An exploration of Narcofeminism. I would only smoke a few each night, but as the weeks went by, I could see it was going up. Suddenly, it became clear to me and I made the biggest decision in my life. I too am so adicted to way i smoke very proud of my smoking needs attentive the way i watch other women smoke it just turns me on so much cant help myself erom smoking 2to3 packs a day and trying to smoke a carton ps do i qualify as to be a smoker love from a smoker smoke em babyyyyyyyyyyyy smoke them beyond the filter dont ever exhail, Thats honest smoking im opening to feel sexy im addicted. At the age of 11, you never think you're going to end up addicted, or how smoking is going to damage your life. RawConfessions user (Login required), Your Message (please type your comment here). One of them is the Hard Rock, my favorite! I'm 36, divorced and have a boyfriend who just turned 50. To be honest I'm lazy and have always struggled a little bit with my weight. So the first thing I had to do was to start smoking. Do not try to inhale. Now I realize that my addict-self is selfish and is motivated only by cigarettes. She will give me a blow job blowing smoke, Replying to. 69625 views | This is the fifth day since I quit. Sometimes a smoke ring, and she does other exhales which a compliment. ", takes big drink and hits the cigarette pretty hard and says, "I'm fine with this", I hate it when people say that someone who smokes smells like an ashtray. Then eating my lunch in about 10 minutes. I decided to do it. Contact Them VIA EMAIL on '[emailprotected] . I enjoyed watching people smoke in old noir filmsdetectives in fedoras and glamorous actresses in sparkling. (He gives great head!) But there is truth. I would use lotion last and rub a small amount in my hair. Well the first two times I had smoked that other substance nothing happened. i got her to try and she is now a smoker like me. Utterly selfish and devoted to my addiction. Today is my fifth smoke-free day. Terry Martin quit smoking after 26 years and is now an advocate for those seeking freedom from nicotine addiction. We've know each other for quite a while but only just started dating about 6 months ago. Did smoking change your personality by making you more confident or more sexy? Today I'm not so sure. New Research Takes a Closer Look, If My Parents Stayed in Hong Kong, I May Not Be Alive Today. And she lit up a cigarette for us to share. Old ladies who are addicted to smoking certainly are not sexy. There's the moment of. Did your personality become more confident, more arrogant, more haughty ever since, or is it the opposite, with feelings of shame subduing your ego? Do you think you really just wanted to smoke after wrapping your head around the concept? Believe it or not, I made this decision when I was just a child of eight, with my aunty's support. Big wow from me. Is it true that smokers cannot concentrate if they do not have enough nicotine? I could see her from where I was working, she stood out in the cold before going into the office puffing away on a Marlboro Red full flavor cork filter 100 cigarette. Over 1 MILLION CONFESSIONS and growing.The World is waiting By submitting the form, you acknowledged that you are or over 18 years old and you will follow i had my first cigarette at 14 (i'm only 15 now). I didn't hesitate in letting her have one which, over the evening, became a couple more. She often wears high heels and short skirts whith a beautifull body. I've been working a lot, got a biker bf (who supports my smoking), traveling, and I continue to smoke of course. Pose and puff without inhaling for your first cigarette, in front of a mirror, as you get used to it. If you do not receive your email shortly, please check your spam folder. 114 comments. Is the image of the "sexy, independent lady who smokes cigarettes" something you think of every time you have your nicotine fix? I felt very proud that I was sitting with my granny smoking my own cigaret. He likes to smoke now too. I love being a smoker and cant ever see that changing. Disgusting. Armeen Poor, MD, is a board-certified pulmonologist and intensivist. I live in a self-imposed prison. At just 24 years old, Bella Thorne is hoping to dominate the marijuana industry. Now, I'm smoking inside." Milo Martin, a poet in Los Angeles, offered fewer excuses. Faiz Azfar, 18, a New York University student who rolls his own cigarettes, in Washington Square Park. I grew up knowing 2 sets of sisters that were smokers. They would get over it. I was 14 at the time I lit it up and took my first drag and I coughed at first but I kept going and by the time I finished it I loved it . It's been 6 months and I keep our rules on two cigarette max on the days she smokes for me. I was with a guy who liked smoking girls. About 6 months later we had a fight and she told me she really just wanted to smoke. I'm both prisoner and jailer because I'm the only one who holds the key to let me out. I asked my sister for help. I started when I was 15. It was almost an unspoken code between us; I don't talk about your habit and you don't talk about mine. After we got married, I thought it would be nice if he could share smokes with me, so I started coaxing him to try it. I would rub them on my fingers and chew on one. I've thought how could anyone love smoking cigarettes (Marlboro full flavor 100s) more than me. And thus the circle goes around and around. It's all about finding a way to feed the addiction. It helps so much for me to look at myself honestly. I'm 24. What do you have to get used to? I decided to quit smoking. 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However I started going out with this guy who smoked and I tolerated it for a while then I began trying to encourage him to quit.to no avail, we eventually broke up, but I regretted that, so what did I do - I started smoking to prove that it wasn't an issue, we did not get back together so I stopped just like that, I was not addicted to cigarettes, which is why I cannot comprehend how people get so addicted, I used to smoke between 10 and 15 cigs a day. A friend suggestedmaking a quit date. My husband and I decided over a month ago that he would leave for a few weeks to start building our dream home out of state, near his parents (who smoke). I just drew the smoke into my mouth; I didn't inhale. Gf had no problem doing it for me. Our website is not intended to be a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. the fact that he literally got canceled for smoking a blunt is insane . We started going out and just clicked. But then, you start to feel increasingly like crap as the years progress. Me, genuinely, not liking those cigarellos, opened up a window for her which i'm so happy happened. It happened so slowly and I see that my mind was playing all sorts of tricks on me. Such a hot topic, so turned on by your story. Sometimes desperation causes us to make bad decisions. I will not smoke today. My girlfriend loves to smoke when she's pleasuring herself, in fact I think she always smokes then.